Raining days

The weather is so bad for this week . It have been raining all these days. Sometimes when I wake up in the morning , I can not tell the differences about day or night , since sky always looked dark . My mood is easy to be affected by weather , just like a huge , black cloud upon my head recently . My friends asked me what happend , but even myself can not find the answer . I think maybe my heart lose direction , and don't know how to go on . I hope the bad feelings will not linger for too much time . I want to be happy , always smilling , and bring joys to the people around me.

More words

Today I Will Make a Differenceby Max LucadoToday I will make a difference. I will begin by controlling my thoughts. A person is the product of his thoughts. I want to be happy and hopeful.Therefore, I will have thoughts that are happy and hopeful. I refuse to be victimized by my circumstances. I will not let petty inconveniences such as stoplights, long lines, and traffic jams be my masters. I will avoidnegativism and gossip. Optimism will be my companion, and victory will be my hallmark. Today I will make a difference.I will be grateful for the twenty-four hours that are before me. Time is a precious commodity. I refuse to allow what little time I have to be contaminated by self-pity, anxiety, or boredom. I will face this day with the joy of a child and the courage of a giant. I will drink each minute as though it is my last. When tomorrow comes, today will be gone forever.While it is here, I will use it for loving and giving. Today I will make a difference.

puncky

My poor Punky is sick. She started throwing up the other day and having diarreah. Now there's blood in it and she'll barely move.
I was hoping by now that'd she get better but, she hasn't. I wish vets didn't charge because if they didn't i would have brought her to one in a heartbeat! I wish i could fucking afford to take her to the vet!
I pray she gets better because without my Punky i would be lost. I love her more than i do my own life and to have to sit here and watch her suffer kills me. I wish i was the one to have to endure her pain.
Right now i have her wrapped in a blanket on the floor. Poor thing can only look at me because she's too sick to move. My heart is breaking right now. I told her to get better so she can celebrate her mommy's birthday with me tomorrow.
There's been so much pain this year and i know there'll be more. Why can't something good happen about now? I don't need anymore bad shit. I really don't.
Get better Punky so we can have many more good times together. I love you with all of my heart. I'll never let you go.

Not perfect

Im not a perfect girl.My hair dosen't always stay in place and I spill a lot of things. I'm pretty clumsy and sometimes I have a broken heart.My friends and I sometimes fight and theres days when nothing goes right;but when I remember it and take a step back,I see how amaxing life truely is, and that maybe, just maybe.....I like being imprefect!!

I hate when people put others down because of how they look etc! My parents go on about how my hair is a mess (hello its windy out!!), about how I need to exercise more and get more active (I do enough!)! The thing is IM NOT PERFECT!! noone is so why try and make me?! I love being me...I love my life (most of the time)! Im usually happy so why change that?!

Annoyed

I just wrote an entry and lost it again!?It pisses me off when that happens....
I'll write again later, I suppose.?Why does that happen?!?The screen just disappears...
Umm... more later....
In a nutshell... doing fine, feeling good...?some ruminating about the life changes a child will bring but I'm still happy about my pregnancy.?We've told pretty much everyone in our lives now and everyone seems very happy for us....?I'm happy for us too... I just need a little more time to let the reality of this to set in.?Still feel a little stunned - like it's not real.

No mail

Feeling sad, and alone tonight.

Being an ocean away from all friends and family brings me down quite often. When I rush home to turn on my laptop, and therere no new emails in my inbox...something inside me dies.

I am the girl everyone has forgotten.

Hey I miss you.
Can you hear that?

Friends of mine

Dear Diary?Do you have friends? I know you do. Anyway, I have a lot of friends in school and they are awesome!But they give me no space!!! Especially my friend named Melissa. She copies me all the time like she wants to be me!!! My best friend hates Melissa and she complains when Melissa tries to be me. Melissa hates my best friend too. Melissa is a show off too. She's good at drawing but she thinks she's all that. Let's stop talking about her. There's this girl in my class who shows her buttcrack so boys will like her. But boys actually HATE HER!!! All the people in my class vote who's the most popular boy and girl. The most popular girl was me!!! That is soooo AWESOME!!! Well,if you guys have friends like that or regular friends, comment about it!!!