puncky

My poor Punky is sick. She started throwing up the other day and having diarreah. Now there's blood in it and she'll barely move.
I was hoping by now that'd she get better but, she hasn't. I wish vets didn't charge because if they didn't i would have brought her to one in a heartbeat! I wish i could fucking afford to take her to the vet!
I pray she gets better because without my Punky i would be lost. I love her more than i do my own life and to have to sit here and watch her suffer kills me. I wish i was the one to have to endure her pain.
Right now i have her wrapped in a blanket on the floor. Poor thing can only look at me because she's too sick to move. My heart is breaking right now. I told her to get better so she can celebrate her mommy's birthday with me tomorrow.
There's been so much pain this year and i know there'll be more. Why can't something good happen about now? I don't need anymore bad shit. I really don't.
Get better Punky so we can have many more good times together. I love you with all of my heart. I'll never let you go.